When you do your best, you're real best han - not a shitty best like: "well today i did my work i ate hearthly" or other stuffs of that kind no!!-
when everyday you're throwing yourself back into question because all you're looking for is understanding your world and be the perfect friend or colleague because you know that paradoxically no-one's perfect. Inevitably you are waiting the same in return... even when you do not want to think about return, even when you say that you don't expect anything...
down in your core you mean it!!
and when true unfairness happens you're suddenly strong AND devasted.
this is one of the infernals questions of being a human